Wednesday, October 20, 2010

0.09/ 211010

i'm not feeling well tonight.
suddenly i feel sad and 'mellow' after i read a tweet from my friend (@Danielsutrisno):
"what will you do if you have a chance to turn back on your past?"

then my mind is going back to the time when my father still alive, around 2 years ago.
i miss him, really miss him. i've replied Daniel's tweet:
"meet my father, hug him tightly and wish he could take care of me again"

i envy much with my friends who still can feel a love from their father. they're so lucky! sometimes i wanna be hugged from daddy.. someone who can take care of me, i mean, really take care of me with the deepest of his heart,not only in his mouth..

but i haven't find someone who can replace my daddy's position.. pathetic.
oh geez, daddyyyyy when will you come to my dream? I need you,i'm lonely. hoaaahhh :'(

aarrrgghhh get away from me hey bad feeling!
let's change topic!
Did you ever try www.karaokeparty.com?
It's a website where you can sing all day looonggg. you'll get so much fun there!
just create an account and you can pick the song you like.
try it!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Mi wedding plan

Whoa! Im in the very good mood to write on my blog! cheers! ;D
By the way, what do you think about my new template? isn't it cute? I think it's simple but really colorful.. sooooo me.

at this time, i wanna talk about my wedding plan! hohoho I know it still so far but hey, every woman has her dream wedding day. I love to imagine, how great my wedding is...
And i'd like to share some of my dreams on this blog. follow me :)

Decoration:
Indoor. And no outdoor please.. it will make my guests in trouble for sure if it rains in that day.
So byebye garden party, beach party or something like that. though i know it's moreeee romantic if I could throw a party in the garden or beach.. with candles in everywhere.
How about yacht? it'd be perfect,right? But hellooo.. it doesnt make sense -_- waste my money. lol. I think I will use a ballroom hotel for my party.



Wedding dress:
I like a simple wedding dress. My body's curvy, so i wont wear a 'too much' dress. Just an A-line white dress.



Wedding cake:
4 layers it's enough just for the wedding cake. actually i dont really like vanilla flavor, but for the wedding cake, choco flavor it's kind of weird and looks not 'pretty'. hahaha. this is it..



Wedding invitation:
Simple invitation is my favorite. didn't get the point of: why do people make an 'awesome' invitation? i mean, those invitations will be in the trash at the end. oh geez.



well, these are my wedding plan! I know, my wedding dress is doesnt match with the decor. cause the decoration looks so javanese and the dress's modern. i dont care.. people have a freedom to express their imagination hahaha. Hopefully, my dreams will come true someday. I wish that special day would be the greatest day in my life with someone that i love. who will be my husband.. someone to share my life with.. forever.

So, what's your wedding plan girls? :)

in the middle of the night

1.06am and still awake.
i'm having a funnnnnny chit chat with my besties Yunia, and we're talking about Suju and Smash. hahahahah can't stop laughing hahahaha. i get lots of fun and feel more happy than before. sometimes i feel more cozy when doing 'me time' at this moment. at around 1 am like now. browsing the things that i like, searching for some pics and video.. stalking twitter/ fb (lol) or just writing on my blog.

kalo lg kaya gini biasanya gue akan merenung atau ngedengerin lagu-lagu yang lagi menggambarkan perasaan gue. atau bahkan ngeliat tweet2nya @TheLoveStories, @ihatequotes, @Damnitstrue yang kadang2 tweetnya suka ada yg sama benerrrr sm diri gue. hahahaha. hal itu gue lakuin sampe gue ngerasa ngantuk. aneh banget deh pdhl sih sbenernya gue ngantuk tp gue ngerasa gak afdol aja tidurnya kalo belom kaya gitu. zzz dan biasanya pagi2nya gue bakal nyesel krn super ngantuk jadinya hehe.

anyway sebenarnya gak ada hal spesifik yg mau gue ceritain sih. lagian hidup gue juga gak ada yg menarik. paling cuma seputar perkuliahan yg makin menggila. seminar gue yg masih stuck di bab1 dan entah gimana caranya bisa lanjut ke bab2 baaaahhhh stressss.
tp seminar aja belom beres, gue dan tmn2 gue udh ngerencanain liburan brg di bulan juli next year hahaha. tadinya tuh gue mau ke Bali krn tiketnya lagi murah banget. eeh tp entah gimana tiba2 harga tiketnya cpt bgt naeknya sampe akhirnya gagal rencana ke bali. huhu padahal udh lumayan seneng tadinya.

ohya gue mendadak inget sm salah satu tweet yg pernah gue tulis:

it's funny when your friend turns into your enemy and your enemy turns into your friend

skrg gue lagi ngerasain itu. lucuuu bgt ngeliat ada org yg udh temenan lama dan skrg jd musuhan. dan gue pun ngerasain musuhan sm org tp skrg malah jd temen. hidup emang lucu ya. kita bener2 gaktau apa yg bakal terjadi di masa depan, ngga bisa diprediksi. makanya ketika ada org yg janji sesuatu sm kita, kita ngga bs sepenuhnya percaya. krn di tengah2 dia bisa aja ingkar janji kan. gue ga munafik, ngga mau bilang kalo gue org yg selalu tepat janji. tapi setidaknya gue coba buat sll tepatin janji gue. bukan cuma omong kosong belaka yg dibuat hanya utk dptin apa yg gue mau dan stlh itu dilupakan kalo udh dpt. makanya mulai skrg gue memutuskan untuk ngga lg minta seseorg buat berjanji. karena ya itu, menyakitkan kalo janji itu ngga bs ditepatin. dan krn itu jg gue jd ga terlalu percaya lg sama janji2 manis.


kenapa ya manusia punya satu sifat yg seragam: senang merasakan sesal.
mereka senang berbuat sesuatu yg pd akhirnya bikin mereka nyesel, atau justru ngga berbuat sesuatu yg akhirnya bikin mereka nyesel juga. aneh banget. dan pasti semua org pernah ngerasain kaya gitu.. hfffff. malah kdg mereka gak cuma sekali ngerasa nyesel. ngelakuin salah yg sama utk kesekian kalinya sampe akhirnya nyesel buat yg kesekian kalinya juga. what a weird human.. i'll never understand this kinda personality (well i know this's not a personality actually, hanya perumpamaan). Dan pertanyaan itu bakal terus muncul di otak gue.. walopun gue tau pasti nggak bakal ada jawabannya.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Chef Aimee Benoit

hello :D

here i am.. in my room, in front of my laptop, and there's baby kay beside me. yes she's an incredible baby -__- it's already 11.40pm and she havent sleep, oh girl.. she's playing with my ducky doll -i got it from my brother Tyo, well that's one of her favorite doll now-

anyway, randomly i wanna write something about my new hobby; cooking! i have to admit that this activity is sooooo muchhhh fun! wow i've finally found the interesting part of cooking :p :p but i couldnt cook the main course.. honestly, i prefer cook the dessert than the side dishes hohoho. it seems moreeee easy.. though i just can make something simple and practical, it's not a big deal. at least, i tried my best :D :D

i like to do an experiment and my siblings are the tester.
so far my favorite foods made by myself are:
1. Tuna Mayo Pangsit
2. Choco crepes
3. Rainbow Jelly
4. Macaroni cheese - actually this foods is not that yummy hahaha thats why i'm not sure to sell it at my campus but i love to eat it as my breakfast or brunch hahaha
5. my latest foods, Fried Banana Choco Melted! this is sooooo damn delicious! I swear!

I use chocolate for 2 of my foods. it's enough to describe how i love chocolateee especially dark choco :D and I wonder if there's people who dont like it. Fyi, a friend of mine (his name's Adi) is really really really doesnt like choco expect white choco. and he told me, he prefer to eats wasabi than choco. whattttttt??! what a weird man. hahaha. too much 'choco' on this paragraph i think lol

well, Maybe i'll give you the recipes and some photos of my 'simple' foods on this blog someday :))

talking about my life lately, hmmm it was complicated. but i wish everything's ok now. my assignments are almost done and i'm getting closer with this word 'DONE'.
Done for all. If i could put a tweet from @Damnitstrue:
"Sometimes we just have to forget about the nightmare and move on with the fairy tale"

i'm not saying my past is my nightmare but it also not my fairy tale.
And i'll always keep those memories with all the sweetness and bitterness :)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

hey boy

Hola!

no updates for a while, huh i'm kinda busy lately. those assignments want to kill me! but.. actually, not at all hahaha. in fact, that man's killing me softly. who's he? Kyu. yes, KYUHYUN SUJU.

oh gossshhh i'm back to those moments when i was in high school! i'm falling in love with an actress. damn! just like me and Mischa. but too bad, i even cant reach him. he's in south korea :'( and it's been about 2weeks since i knew him. and furthermore, i'm searching for all things about him. MV, varietyshow, pict, gossip, etc! god i'm getting crazzzzzyyyy :s :s i swear he's so damn cuteeeeeee! maybe it's too much but oh well i dont know what i have to say anymore. no words cant describe him lol.

anyway, super junior's gonna make a super show in spore on january. kyaaaaaaaa i wanna watch it for God's sake! but i know it's impossible.. the ticket is too expensive. 300sgd, hah? lalalaaaa lets make it a dream, not a reality -_-




KyuHyun Super Junior

beside that, i'm happy with my life now! i dont know why, but i feel like there's no any pain in myself. i'm laughing, smiling, and enjoying everythings. no, it's not my fake feelings, it's pure. so i just can hope there's no people who will ruin it. pleaseeee.. just let me alone like this, if you wanna make me happy. and i'll really really really appreciate it. i dont care if you want to stalking anything about me as long as you dont disturb me and back to my life. just go away and live your life.. i'll pray the best for you, hey boy.